Dear Jesus Christ

Dear Jesus Christ,

I need You more than I need myself. This life, the desires, my will and the abilities to manage them, You gave it all to me but I can't handle it without Your help. It's like I'm carrying a large amount of money with me but don't know its value or how to count it,. or like I'm at this huge lifeboat on the middle of the ocean but don't know how to sail it, or maybe it's more like I'm stuck with these troubles and questions about my life, found the answers and solutions in this huge treasury, but can't find the key to open it. The thing is God, I need someone who can guide me, someone who will guide to and along this path, and You're the one who can. Please guide me..

Yours faithfully,
Vintan Veronica Rosaline

Jar Of Hearts (Christina Perri) - Maddie Jane

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore? 

You lost the love I loved the most 

I learned to live, half alive 

And now you want me one more time 

And who do you think you are?

Running 'round leaving scars 

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart
 

You're gonna catch a cold 

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me 

Who do you think you are?

 
I hear you're asking all around 

If I am anywhere to be found  

I have grown too strong 

To ever fall back in your arms
 

I've learned to live, half alive 

Now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are? 

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts 

And tearing love apart
 

You're gonna catch a cold 

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me  

Don't come back at all
 

Dear, it took so long 

Just to feel alright  

Remember how to put back 

The light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed  

Cause you broke all your promises  

And now you're back you don't get to get me back
 

Who do you think you are?  

Running 'round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts 

And tearing love apart

 
You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

So don't come back for me 

Don't come back at all
 

And who do you think you are? 

Running 'round leaving scars  

Collecting your jar of hearts 

And tearing love apart
 

You're gonna catch a cold  

From the ice inside your soul  

Don't come back for me 

Don't come back at all
 

Who do you think you are? 

Who do you think you are? 

Who do you think you are?

Separuh Aku - NOAH

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Questions About Me

1) My middle name is? => Veronica 

2) I was born in? => San Francisco, California. United States

3) I am really? => Fun, outgoing, funny, other things 

4) My cellphone company is? => Simpati (Telkomsel) & US Cellular 

5) My eye color is? => Dark brown 

6) My shoe size is? => 39/40, depends on brand 

7) My ring size is? => I don't know, haven't been measured 

8) My height is? => 156 cm 

9) I am allergic to? => Shells, dust, cigarette smoke

10) My 1st car was? => BMW 135i

11) My 1st job was? => Coach of Cheerleading

12) Last book you read? => High End Teen Magazine

13) My bed is? => Memory foam

14) My pet? => Lots of dogs, two cats, and one guinea pig 

15) My best friend? => I have more than one best friend 

16) My favorite shampoo is? => NR Protein 

17) Piggy banks are? => Useful, I use a tootsie roll bank 

18) In my pockets? => Blackberry/Money

19) On my calendar? => A lot of things 

20) Marriage is? => Bond of a love that God blessed

21) Last youtube video watched? => Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen

22) How many cousins do you have? => A lot, I have 50 cousins (45 sibling cousins & 5 step cousins) 

23) Do you have any siblings? => Yes! An older brother and a younger sister

24) Are your parents divorced? => Nope! 

25) Are you taller than your Mom? => Not quite, but I will be 

26) Do you play an instrument? => Violin

27) What did you do yesterday? => Hmm.. Cook, play games, watch tv, sleep


28) Love at first sight? => Jason
 
{Believe/Not}

29) Luck? => Yes! 

30) Fate? => No! 

31) Yourself? => Of course yes!

32) Aliens? => No!

33) Heaven? => Yes! 

34) Hell? => No! 

35) God? => Of course yes! Love him so much than my self 

36) Horoscopes? => No!

37) Soul mate? => Yes! 

38) Ghosts? => Yes, I firmly believe I have seen one

39) Gay marriage? => Yes, but I think it's so crazy -_-

40) War? => Yes, but I think just waste of time

41) Orbs? => No!

42) Magic? => No!

{This/That}
 
43) Hugs or kisses? => Hugs 

44) Drunk or high? => High 

45) Phone or online? => Online on Phone :P

46) Red heads or black haired? => Black haired 

47) Blondes or brunettes? => Brunettes 

48) Hot or cold? => Depend weather, but I like cold drinks

49) Summer or winter? => Winter 

50) Autumn or spring? => Spring 

51) Chocolate or vanilla? => Vanilla 

52) Night or afternoon? => Night 

53) Oranges or apples? => Apples 

54) Curly or straight hair? => Curly 

55) McDonalds or burger king? => Burger King 

56) White chocolate or milk chocolate? => Milk chocolate 

57) Mac or pc? => PC

58) Flip flops or high heels? => High Heels

59) Ugly and rich or handsome and poor? => Depends of my heart, I think face and money doesn't matter 

60) Coke or pepsi? => Not both 

61) Hillary or obama? => Obama 

62) Singing or dancing? => Dancing! :D 

63) Small town or big city? => Big town 

64) Manicure or pedicure? => Both!

65) East coast or west coast => West coast 

66) Your birthday or christmas? => Both! 

67) Chocolate or flowers? => Flowers 

68) Disney or six flags? => Disney

{Last time}
 
69) Hugged someone? => This morning 

70) Last time you ate? => Right now, dinner with roasted chicken

71) Cried in front of someone? => I forgot 

72) Went to a movie theatre? => Last week 

73) Took a vacation? => Right now, since 23 Juny 2012 until 8 July 2012

74) Swam in a pool? => Thursday, 31 May 2012 

75) Went to a wedding? => Last week 

76) Broke a bone? => When I was 3 years old and 15 years old

{Misc} 

77) Something I will really miss when I leave home is? =>  My pets especially doggies :( 

78) The last movie I saw in the theaters? => The Woman In Black 

79) The thing I'm not looking forward to? => Waking up early tomorrow 

80) People call me? => Vintan/Vivi/Pitan

81) My zodiac sign is? => Scorpion's girl

82) The first person I talked to today was? => My mommy 

83) Frst time you had a crush? => Junior High School

84) Right now I'm talking to? => Nothing 

85) What are you going to do when you grow up? => To be a successful doctor
86) The person that makes me cry the most is? => My Daddy :(

87) People that make you happy? => My family, my pets and my besties

88) Last time I cried? => Sunday, 1 July 2012

89) Your hair color is? => Black 

90) My room is? => My favorite place

91) Do you want children? => Yes! Someday, when already married

92) Ever been in love? => Yes!

93) More guy friends or girl friends? => Both, but I think guy friends more enjoyable than girl friends

94) One person that you wish you could see right now? => My boyfriend (Melvin) :(

95) Have you made a list of things to do before you die? => Not yet, I haven't thought about it 

96) I would like to move to? => Singapore or California but with my family 

{My favorites}

97) Vehicle? => I actually prefer the car, but because I can't drive a car so I choose a motorcycle as my favorite vehicle

98) Cellphone provider? => In Indonesia (Simpati, Telkomsel) & In United States (US Cellular) 

99) Animal? => All kind of animals, except insects

100) Day of the week? => Saturday and Sunday

101) Food? => Indonesian food, Italian food, European food

102) Radio station? => 98,7 Gen FM

103) Flower? => Rose and Orchid

104) Comedian? => Jeff Dunham, Larry the Cable Guy, Jeff Foxworthy, Ron White, Adam Sandler, and Andy Samberg 

105) Place? => My bedroom and beach

Ballerina

A Ballerina in The Light Must Always be A Performer

Stand on your toes and wait for the applause to die

Complete your first turn and keep your balance

Your face falls so fake it

Smile and be merry

When your body rejects all movement

Transform into a person

Whom you have never met before

You freeze in your step and the torture is over

The audience rises for your standing ovation

Let the shadows hear your true self

as the light would not, could not listen

End it and become a performer to yourself

Get on with your life but prepare for the same pain tomorrow

Questions

1. Do you like chinese food? => No!

2. How big is your bed? => Big enough

3. Is your room clean? => Yes!

4. Laptop or Desktop computer? => Laptop

5. Favorite comedian? => I can't decide

6. Do you smoke? => No, it's useless

7. Does anyone like you? => I don't know, I'll ask someone later

8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? => What is that?

10. Sleep with or without clothes on? => With -__-

11. Who sleeps with you every night? => Alone

12. Do long distance relationships work? => Don't ask me, I'm optimistic :P

13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? => Never

14. Pancakes or French Toast? => Pancakes

15. Do you like coffee? => Yes!

16. How do you like your eggs? => Scrambled

17. Do you believe in astrology? => Sometimes

18. Last person you talked to on the phone? => My besties (Vita)

19. Last person on your missed call list? => Unknown number

20. What was the last text message you received? => "Okay dear. Bye. Good                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     night and sweet dream :)"

21. McDonalds or Burger King? => Burger King

22. Number of pillows? => Two

23. Last thing you ate? => Roast chicken and Grilled fish :P

24. Last thing you bought? => Cake or something like that

25. What are you hearing right now? => Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen

26. Pick a lyric? => "I have loved you for a thousand years"

27. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? => Grape or Strawberry

28. Can you play pool? => Yes! On wii :P

29. Do you know how to swim? Noooooo!!! -___-

30. Favorite ice cream? => Vanilla!

31. Do you like maps? => What does it mean?

32. Tell me a random fact? => Sometimes I walk in circle while changing my clothes LOL :P

33. Ever had a hard on at work? => Nope

34. Ever attend a theme party? => Yes!

35. Ever do a keg stand? => What's that?

36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking? => Never happened

37. What is your favorite season? => Spring and Winter

38. What is the first music video you ever saw? => I think it was "Torn" by Natalie Imbruglia

39. Pick a movie quote> => "We could be dead, or even worst, expelled"

40. Favorite quote? => "Life is simple. It's just not easy"

41. What is your favorite hangout? => Everywhere, as long as I'm with my friends

42. Best friend's name? => I have more than one best friend

43. How long have you known them? => Long enough

44. Last time you laughed at something stupid? => Today I laughed at something stupid

45. What time did you wake up this morning? => 05.00 am

46. Wake up next to anyone? => There's no one

47. Best thing about winter? => Ice skating and make snowman! :D

48. Name a couple of favorite colors? => Blue, Purple, White, Pink

49. How old are you? => 18 almost 19 years old

50. What month is your birthday in? => November

51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated? => Super cool, but kinda gross

52. What are you doing this weekend? => Go to the dentist and then creambath ;)

53. What do you think about this questions? => I feel like a star :P No, I'm joking

Dating Girls: Why Is It So Hard?

Boys, we know that you think that girls are so complicated, and unreasonable, and so difficult. But actually, we're really not. It's just that we have a different view at things from you. So here are tips that I think could help (because I listen to their stories, every single day, trust me. And I am also, one of them)
1. The Ghosts From The Past
Nope, not talking about The Christmas Carol. I am talking about your ex-girlfriends, or any girl you've ever interested in. This is a little bit tricky, you can talk about them, but don't praise them. Don't praise them, at all. Girls want to be better than them for you. And also, this doesn't mean that you must talk about them all the time, we're gonna think that you still have feelings for your ex. And NEVER, EVER, make your girl jealous with your ex on purpose. That's just mean.

2. The Unreasonable(s)Yeah, this is the most common problem with us girls. You must ask this question a lot, "What did I do??" and we just can't or don't want to tell you. Probably because girls are too shy and too polite to tell you what's the problem. If this is the case, the first thing that you've got to do is check if she's on her period (pms) or not. If yes, just comfort her. Or, if you want to be the best boyfriend ever, go to her house & bring her favorite food/ice cream or movie (saw this on the meta picture :D). She'll calm down fast. But, if she's not on her period, then? you're kinda in trouble. The first thing you've to do is look back these past few days, think, did you do something wrong or differently? If yes, fix it as soon as possible, and say that you're sorry. If you can't figure out what's the problem, just be nice to her, and slowly ask her what's the problem. Slowly, and smoothly.

Okay, I think I'm gonna stop here now, I'm kinda tired. I'll post more about this later. Just...be nice to your girlfriends, just like Finn to Rachel, and Ted Mosby to all the girls he dated. Because she might be the best thing you've ever have.